until i have a better handle on my gender identity, i don’t feel comfortable being out as a guy. i need to figure out what exactly ‘out’ means for me and i don’t want to continue to do this double life juggle.
i made my public revelation about my gender identity before i was ready in the slightest and i have been feeling a lot of anxiety surrounding it for quite some time now.
I played through Gone Home a few weeks ago and I think I’m going to use it for a short response paper I’m writing?
We have to talk about Freud’s writing on the uncanny (which talks way too much about castration complex for me to take it too seriously, but I doubt my disdain for freud needs much explanation).
So basically, the uncanny is the sense of something that is frightening/fills you with dread but is known and familiar (like the beating in The Tell-Tale Heart), which is the entire concept behind why Gone Home was so unnerving and terrifying to play alone at night.
Hopefully my professor will continue to take me seriously after this.
"I’m 36 years old and I have 21 Grammys. That’s the most Grammys of any 36-year-old. Out of all of those 21 Grammys, I’ve never won a Grammy against a white artist. … So when the Grammys nominations come out, and ‘Yeezus’ is the top one or two album on every single list, but only gets two nominations from the Grammys, what are they trying to say? Do they think that I wouldn’t notice? Do they think that, someway, that I don’t have the power to completely diminish all of their credibility at this moment?” -Kanye West (source HuffPost)